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That wasn’t so bad

My first “week” back at work has come and gone and it wasn’t as painful as I thought it would be. It makes it a lot easier to come back when everyone is just so happy to see you and tells you how glad they are that you are back. My co-workers have been very supportive and understanding. They are a huge part of why I love my job. Work is so much more fulfilling and enjoyable when you not only love what you do but like the people you work with as well.

I have so much catching up to do I don’t know where to begin! Thankfully, most people are waiting before asking me questions that they know I probably won’t know how to answer. I know that I’ll eventually get back in the swing of things but right now it seems like I’ll never get back in the groove. Among the things I have to start working on:

  • Helping Cindy with the conversion of our website. We’re moving away from using Front Page and using what I think is called a content management system. (Please correct me if I’m wrong. I’m not totally sure that’s what it’s called.) Cindy says it’s very tedious but she’s also a maniac about being able to manipulate code and accessibility so we’ll see.
  • Spending the rest of my teen book budget: a whopping $2500. This will mostly go towards filling in manga series and filling in other holes.
  • Whittling down my mending. Do you think the books that get all beat up and gross just disappear? Someone has to go through them, withdraw them from the system, and decide if it’s actually worth reordering. Doing mending is dirty and sad. Dirty because, let’s face it, people do icky things to library books. Sad because, books fall apart, some faster than others and it hurts to have to replace a manga that fell apart after 10 people checked it out.
  • Getting ready for our teen summer programs and summer reading club. YIKES! I don’t even want to go into what this will entail, mostly because I have no idea what we’re going to do. Just thinking about it makes my head pound.

I worked the reference desk for just a little bit on Thursday and I was reminded of just how much fun it was. Once I was able to figure out that someone wanted the “Diary of a Wimpy Kid” books and not books about diarrhea (kids mumble, all right?), I was good to go. I’ve always loved being able to help people find the information they’re looking for. I’m also looking forward to seeing my teens again. Thinking about how far behind I am makes me remember just how much I do at the library, how far I’ve come in my career, and how much I enjoyed doing it all. I’ve always felt so proud of my accomplishments and, even though things as I make time for my new family, I can’t wait to add more to the list!

On my first day back they also happened to be taking pictures for a National Library Week promotion. It was perfect timing because posing for this picture reminded me of what I’m always striving to be: a SUPER LIBRARIAN!

Don't mess with Super Librarian!

Don't mess with Super Librarian!

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Back to work

Well, it was inevitable. Tomorrow (Thursday) I head back to work. I purposely planned it so that I not only come back towards the end of the week but my second day back is a staff Inservice day and therefore a whole different kind of stressful. It meant taking a little vacation time but I think it will definitely be worth it.

Mom will be watching Griffin at my sister Ning’s house. According to Google Maps they live about 20 minutes away from my library. If I really wanted to I could go over there for lunch, get a Griffin fix, then come home. As much as I’d like to do that, I think it would just be too much rushing around. But at the same time it’s nice to know that it’s a possibility.

I can’t go on for it much longer because, and I now it sounds very drama queen of me, it makes me sad and upset to think about being away from Griffin for so long–give or take NINE HOURS! I know it will get better but the mopey side of me feels like this is the worst thing ever and is having  very difficult time staying positive.

So…wish me luck on a first day back!

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I’ll be bumming around

So I had a mini breakdown at work yesterday. In my What to Expect when You’re  Expecting, it talks about what you may be feeling physically and emotionally during the month. For the ninth month, one of the feeling is “irritability and oversensitivity (especially with people who keep saying ‘Are you still around?'” For the last couple of weeks that has totally been me!

Every day, when people walk by my cube (which is in a high traffic zone) I get the “Oh, you’re here! You haven’t had the baby YET?” From people I hadn’t seen for a few days, particularly on Mondays after the weekend I got “Wow, you’re even huger!” or “You look even more pregnant than ever!” or “That baby is going to be gigantic!”

The one that started bothering the most was that some people were sure I was going to pop the baby out at work. I kept saying that, from what I’ve heard, it’s NOT like the movies where it happens at the speed of light! In most cases, takes hours. Our hospital is really close to the library (closer than our house) so there should be enough time to get me there if we really had to. Also, if I felt like I was in labor, I WOULDN’T COME TO WORK! The responses were usually, “Sure…but you never know!” Okay, I KNOW they were joking. But you know what? Hearing the same joke many times a day for weeks gets extremely old.

Yesterday I went to work feeling awful. I didn’t sleep well the night before. I ended up getting up at about 5:30am because I was STARVING. I had some cereal, tooled around on the computer, then took a quick nap before going in to work. I didn’t really want to go–my belly was feeling sooo heavy and it felt like a workout to walk because my legs felt like, but I wasn’t planning to stay long so I went in anyway. I probably should have waited a while. All was well until someone stopped by my cube and made joked about giving birth right there and I just went off! I said that I’m NOT giving birth in the library and I’m just sick of that joke, and tired of it all, and I can’t wait for the baby to come and on and on. I felt so bad the whole time and the person kept apologizing, but it was too late. I nearly burst into tears, but I managed to hold it in. After that, I decided to call it a day.

It was a combination of that and all the OTHER people who had already stopped by that morning that really got me going. Afterward, I felt so mean and ungrateful because I know they really truly care and are just being nice, but really I think it was really starting to wear me down. I really want him to get here and the constant questions and comments weren’t helping my anxiousness.

I started thinking about it and dreading the NEXT day I had to go back to work. I just don’t think I could handle it. I’m afraid I might break down again. I love my job I really wanted to work up until the baby came, but I just don’t think it’s going to happen. As it was, I was working short days because I was so worn out. I’m physically and emotionally spent. So I talked it over with Ning and Scott and I think I’m going to start my leave now. There are a few things I’m going to try to do from home, but I definitely won’t be going in very often. I talked to my boss and feel so much better now that I have!

Scott asked me if I would get bored around the house. I thought about it and I don’t think I’ll be a total slacker. There’s still a lot of sorting through stuff I can do here. There are a bunch of other little things that I can’t get done during the weekend because I’m doing stuff with Scott. I can also use the time to visit different day cares so that we can get on the waiting list for the one we want.

And, most importantly, I can just rest up for the birth giving process. I hear it takes a lot out of you. 🙂


Scott’s world of work

Scott on the Emmys red carpet

Scott on the Emmys red carpet

This year Scott became a municipal employee as well! He now works for the City of Allen as a Video Producer. I think he likes it because he gets to spread his creative wings a lot more than he did at Hot on Homes.

He’s already doing fantastic things there. In this first year alone he’s been nominated for several awards. His team cleaned up at one of the statewide award shows (I don’t remember the name, you’d have to ask him). They’ve also won first place NATIONWIDE for Excellence in Government Programming.

The most exciting news is that Scott was nominated for a Texas Emmy! Unfortunately, he didn’t win but there’s always next year! He did get to go to Houston for the award ceremony AND walk down the red carpet. We even bought him a new suit for the occasion. Doesn’t he look so handsome all suited up?

Anyway, he’s doing all kinds of cool things for the City of Allen. One of my favorites is a weekly “what’s happening” show called the Dilly-O. To take a look at this show as well as his other projects check out their YouTube channel.

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My world of work

I’m still working as a Librarian for the Carrollton Public Library. Officially my title is Librarian but unofficially I’m the Teen Librarian. Basically, I do all things teen related. This means planning activities to get teens into the library, buying books (HOORAY!) for the teen collection, and overseeing the teen advisory group. I really truly enjoy it. When one of my teens (a true sweetheart) presented me with a baby blanket she knitted for the baby, I felt so lucky to be doing what I’m doing.

Not knowing that I’d be carrying around a growing human being, I planned all kinds of stuff for the Summer: a murder mystery program, three after hours programs, and a Guitar Hero 3/DDR tournament. Thank goodness I had LOTS of help. I cut out a lot of stuff I was planning for the Fall before I actually  finalized everything so after October my programming workload lightened a bit. (Maybe the little guy was already dropping hints on his appearance!) But we did do a lot of fun stuff for Teen Read Week. We made stuffed critters out of felt and had an indoor Capture the Flag.

I’m still working on the library’s website but not as much as I used to.  I think my website partner in crime lets me get away with doing less because I’m responsible for our teen blog. I’m also still serving on the library’s System Support Team which means, if the computers are acting up, I’m one of the people they call.

Volunteering for Libraries Build Communities

Volunteering for Libraries Build Communities

I was appointed to the Young Adult Library Services Association’s (YALSA, it’s a division of the American Library Association) Committee for Professional Development in the Summer of ’07. Although their charge sounds pretty self explanatory one of our tasks this year was to rewrite some of the committee’s duties.

This was also my first year attending ALA Midwinter in Philadelphia and the ALA Annual Conference in Anaheim. It was an amazing experience, especially if you are a librarian nerd like me! In Philly I didn’t lick the Liberty Bell but I did have dinner with a bunch of Asian librarians. And in Anaheim, I got to spend some quality time with my dear friend Elle who drove all the way out from Phoenix!

I’m really excited about my latest appointment. This year I was nominated to serve on YALSA’s Amazing Audiobooks for Young Adults–a committee I’ve been dying to get on for years! Beginning in February (hopefully, I never got a confirmation from the chick in the YALSA office about my acceptance of the position), I’ll be doing a lot less reading and a lot more reading. It just make maternity leave way more interesting.

I’ve had to make some schedule adjustments. It was getting so hard for me to work from 12-9. (I was always wiped out the next morning!) I’m trying to get everything together before I go out on leave. That part has been pretty hard for the control freak in me because it means I’m going to have to turn over my duties to other people for a while. I’m hoping to be able to take 12 weeks of maternity leave. It’s going to be hard to be gone but I think it’s going to be even harder to go back!